Updated: Feb 2
I am so tired....
This is what I have found myself saying for the past few months. Although within those months, God has been speaking to me, I still found myself feeling so unmotivated to read the word of God. I had days when I kept a steady rhythm in journalling, sending time with God etc, and then I just crashed back down.
I feel it is not just me that feel this way. The whole purpose of this blog is to encourage you on your journey and spur you on but it is a journey for me too. I wanted this particular post to let you know how I've felt and to also show that being a Christian isn't easy but it is easier when you surrender wholeheartedly to God and walk with Him. So if you stumble across this, I want to let you know it is ok... for now! Don't be scared of being vulnerable.
It says in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10, "But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
A few home truths:
We can always go to God when we feel this way! In fact this is the time when we need God the most. The enemy will encourage you to keep delaying and putting off spending time with God because you feel tired and you might then start justifying your reasoning. This has been me for a while.
He does not want you to get closer to God because as you do, God will speak to you and you will start to move towards what God has for you and the enemy does not want that.
So what do we do?
Find a way to still indulge in the word of God.
Talk to God and be real! Don't say what you think He wants to hear, instead say how you feel.
Pray anyway - My youth leader recently said to me that prayer is like the oxygen for our faith which is so true. But I believe it is not only for our faith, it is for our entire being - both physical and spiritual.
Just to conclude, I don't know your circumstances but I just want to encourage you by saying God sees and He knows. Take this time to recuperate (sometimes rest is needed) and then get back into the groove of getting closer and closer to God.
Heavenly Father, thank you for who you are to us and thank you for your never-ending love, guidance, protection and constant presence. You know all about me including my problems, pain and hurt and you support me through each season. Lord I pray for your strength and guidance. Guide me through this current season and fill me with your peace which transcends all understanding in Jesus name, Amen.
Stay blessed troops!